meltdown

well, i had a worst mom award moment. jj had his christmas performance yesterday night at school. he had been practicing for weeks. they sang 4 songs. i was planning to record it on my phone using the camcorder and then post it on the blog. well, that day i completely lost my mind. it had been raining all day and it started snowing just before we left. everyone was so excited about the snow and i realized we were going to be late. we rush to the school in a snowstorm and run to his classroom. i did not want to have jj be the last kid there. well we walk in and realize that they have two kindergarten classes of kids and their families all crammed into ONE classroom. i go to grab my phone out of my purse and its not there. i left it at home. well, i think thats ok. i have my camera. NOPE. left that too. i use jesse's camera phone and it doesnt have zoom. since we were late i wasnt sitting on the side where jj was standing. of course! good thing my sister in law had her camera in her purse. i was so thankful for that, but the lighting was off and then the batteries died. AHHHH. i wanted to cry. actually i did. not during, but after. i thought poor jj is singing his heart out and all i am worried about is not being able to take pictures. once i get a hold of myself and realize we are there for him, i really start to listen and pay attention. those songs were very cute and clever. i know that he wont remember those pictures i shouldve taken, but he might remember me watching him and being there for him.

that night i cried and felt awful for letting him down. really i didnt. i am such a planner that i am always thinking ahead. never really enjoying the moment. as bad as i felt after, i actually am glad that i was able to really pay attention and watch him and let him know i was watching him. he had a great time. just a thought to all you guys. the week before christmas is crazy. try to just enjoy your family and friends in the moment and not worry about what is to come.

oh, also a funny story. for those of you who know our dog, charlie. she is very revengeful when it comes to leaving her alone. she doesnt do kennels. she poops in them. if we leave her in the house. she chews and poops and pees. so since it was snowing outside we decided to lbe compassionate and leave her in the garage while we went to the christmas performance. we were gone, 30 minutes. in that time she pooped, peeped and ripped open a brand new 50 pound bag of dog food. dog food was everywhere. she also stepped in a sticky glue mouse trap. she walks in and she looks like she has flippers on her feet. once jesse and i cleaned the garage and her paw, everything was under control. you know the saying when it rains it pours. that day, it was literally and figuratively.